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The Edge of the Cliff

So I’m in my third term of my school’s one TV Writing class taught by a former actor and TV writer. I’ve written two original pilots, one of which has notes and is waiting for revision. I’m about to start writing a third original pilot.

On top of that, I’m nearly finished with my first spec script (which I’ve found I hate and will have to completely re-do) and I’m feeling mostly okay.

Because I have great feedback from my classmates and my professor. I’d say I’m in the top 3 of the class based on quality, work ethic, and overall talent and drive.

I know my strengths are pacing and dialogue and my weaknesses are creating interesting and concise action/description as well as sometimes stalling the story.

But I love television. Like, it’s an unhealthy obsession. Even as I type this I want to go watch Game of Thrones, or even re-watch some episodes of The Vampire Diaries to figure out where to place my next spec in the timeline of the show. Or maybe I’ll re-watch an episode of Gilmore Girls because that ish just does not get old.

I want to return to the lives of my favorite characters and cheer them on and maybe learn a little bit about myself and who I want to be based on their mistakes and triumphs.

I understand the difference between good television and entertaining television and I rejoice when they’re one and the same.

But I don’t particularly want to move to L.A. unless I know I have a job.

And while I’m all for networking (I’m surprisingly really good at it), it’s not something I relish doing in the schmoozefest that is Hollywood.

I read articles like the recent Julie Plec (“The Vampire Diaries”, “The Originals”, “The Tomorrow People”) interview and I think “I want to do that. I want to work with you, Julie, and I can’t help but think that you’d enjoy working with me.” But how to get there?

And the anxiety sets in. What if, going into the second season of “The Originals” there’s a huge hiring bump as they settle into this show that has become a CW hit? What if in a year or two or three they’re not hiring? What if I’m missing a dozen chances because I’m wasting my time on a degree that has nothing to do with what I’m currently passionate about?

And then I tell myself I’m an idiot because outside of my internal fantasy life, I’m not ready to be writing for a TV show. I mean, I could do it, but I don’t think I’d rock it as hard as I’d like.

But I think I’m on my way to being ready, and then what?

Do I get an agent? And how? Do I move to L.A.? And how? Do I just give up and stay in Portland and live the life I thought I would be living two years ago? Not a chance.

Because I’ve never been more excited about a career possibility before I discovered my love of TV writing. And every time I tell someone what I’m working towards, they answer enthusiastically, “Oh my god! You’d be perfect for that! I’m so excited for you!” (Like, seriously, it’s a little weird how excited people get.)

So I’m at the edge of the cliff and not sure where to go. I’ve been following TV writers on twitter and subscribing to blogs and just inundating myself with the TV business. And now I have this blog. Not sure what it will look like, but I do know it will be a place where people can find out who I am, what I’m about, and hopefully what I can do.

And now that I’m finding all these network writers’ programs, the new anxiety sets in. How am I going to get 1-2 strong spec scripts written by May 30?

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